Random Thoughts

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There's a lot to be thankful for these past few months. I've managed to get through some of the most complicated phases in my life. Coming into terms with my fears is somewhat an achievement for me. And, somehow, I've also managed to take that first difficult step towards acceptance. In a lot of ways, I've learned to open up. I was able to share some of my heart's deepest pains, secrets and wounds to others - a few close friends, some cousins, newfound friends and even "young professionals". It was a good feeling. It was ... quite liberating and humbling at the same time. It has always been difficult for me to share the saddest and most painful moments I've gone through. But somehow, I found the courage to share snippets of my life's struggles to others. These people know where to find one of the most painful stories I experienced as a mom.

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36 before 36

i'll be turning 36 in a few more months. so i guess it's time to do my bucket list once again. i've been doing this for the last 3 years. every year, a few months before my birthday, i would list down the things i want to do or intend to do before i turn another year older. (i succeed in some, i fail on the others). still, i guess, having a list and seeing it every now and then makes everything more plausible. this year, i decided to publish my "36 before 36" list online (for a change). only a few know this is me, anyway. here we go...

1. go vegetarian for 1 month (it's not about being skinny. it's about being fit.)
2. control my temper and become more considerate
3. level up my baking skills!
4. JUJU cleanse for 2 days
5. discover a great place for vacation with family
6. go back to doing yoga exercises every other day
7. visit the adoration chapel to pray (just pray...without crying)
8. get a massage
9. de-stress. de-toxify.
10. zip line

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just awhile ago, my husband asked me what my motto in life is - very slambook-ish but i gave it a deep thought without asking him why. until i remembered something which i saved on my cellphone a few months back;

"what's for you won't pass you by"

i asked him if he also has one. he started off with the word "destiny" ... intrigued, i waited for the next words to follow.

he simply said... "s child".

"Destiny's child."

joke ba yun? (thank you, ha). 


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final thought...

i'm going to drift off to sleep now with a smile on my face. tomorrow is yet another day full of promises and goodness. i'm going to stay positive.

the best is yet to come.

i haven't changed my mind. i still don't want to become an inspiration or an example. i
 want to be taken seriously.